The bipolar weather is all I could notice for now. Today it will burn you and later it will drown you. How can we not be serious about global warming and end of the world with this? It’s crazy!!!

(1) I am very grateful for myself for not only having free shoes but finally starting collecting the most handsome shoes for me…oxfords/brogues! :”> I go gaga when I see them on sale/ buy 1 take 1! Soon, I hope I could sell some. :) Hopefully.

(2) It’s a fact that I can live without a phone or the internet but not without my planner. I can get by by just doodling and writing everything on it. It is my planner slash diary all in one. Now it serves its purpose at most.

(3) Currently I have been a love doctor or rant-avenue on relationships to people. It helps to know myself better since I am also in a relationship. Dating and relationships are things that are serious like getting married since it’s a step prior to it. I am not in a perfect relationship but one must know that be in a commitment wherein you see yourself working for. I just read a quote saying if you do not see yourself marrying the person you are with it means you are just using the person. As simple as that.

(4) Revamp products are already tagged! I’m really excited and giddy in serving you people so continue supporting. I am very much overwhelmed with the people who are happy for my venture so except more products and promos by next week. :) <3 <3

Words are like blades coming out from the mouths or minds of people. They hurt as much as the physical. Some people who get angry today and say as much cursing or hurtful words are most likely to cause damage to the other. The harm here is that some do not mean it but the damage has been done. Be reminded that there are words that are still supposed to be unreleased even if you are mad. They rather stay and stain the minds and even feelings of people. Words are the most powerful.

It’s becoming a regular. Thrift shopping has been regularly a part of my months now and how could I not veer away, my money is worth every item that I buy. Just today I submitted our final thesis proposal and no one could really imagine how stressed I am. I was in charge of the proof reading and editing. I stayed up until 3am and woke up 5am. Imagine the lack of sleep. I was really stressed and low in energy.

Everything though just went away when I bumped into my good gay friend Cheska and accompanied me during my thrift shopping cravings.

For the whole month though, here’s what I was able to add to my collection. Some new styles and probably some better goodies this time.

I was able to snatch these items all at the same time! I was not able to visit any store during the first three weeks of the month and just before it ended I was able to have these all at once. I tried buying more tops so that  I could survive those lazy days and hassle moments ahead.

(1) Cosmic printed long top (2) Studded loose top (3) 3-toned shirt (4) white seater-ish knitted-ish top. (I’m poor with these types of terms. Haha.)

I wanted to have more dresses and long sleeves so I decided to hunt for them and here are some treasures. I am also in search for more corporate attires for the upcoming OJT that I will have and the defense and seminars in school. :s

(5) satin empire cut dress (6) glittered 3-tone long top (7) studded long sleeves (8) pastel colored longsleeved dress with side pockets

And my favorite, a new pair of skinny jeans! I love the color and faded jeans is one of the things I covet. Just to give you an idea of how I was able to save by buying these, all of these amount to just more or less Php400-500. Everything in total. Such a good bargain!

Been eyeing on some belts too which can give more life to a dull look! 

I just can’t take off the smile on my face after seeing sale items on the rack. They were all good and it’s as if they were there to liven me up after the tiresome hell week that I had. This has always been a perfect me-time for me. Always. At least this is a healthy way of de-stressing myself and a therapeutic activity as well.

We sometimes reap every chance to get that one shot of a lifetime but sometimes, available chances does not always mean that it is for you. It’s like life is making you crave for something that is, in the end, would not be given to you. That’s a sad fact that we cannot change. Not everything you see, no matter how hard you work for it or beg life to give it to you, would never be yours. Just be glad you met it and seize the moment that you were able to have it even though it is temporarily.

Life is bitter but you have to be better.

There are things in the world that are better left that way. It is far more useful to just accept things as they are and not insist yourself on making them go in accordance to what you want. In the long run, you will disappoint yourself and even get hurt. 

Just let it be. If it comes, it happens…thank you. If it does not…still thank you.

Every circumstance in this life is bounded and filled with choices. The options provided for you are your possible paths on how to go on with your life. You have to blame no one for the life that you have right now since everything is by your choice and your choice only. Everyone should know how to choose correctly because sometimes, there are no more chances. 

Some people tend to envy couples who seem to be so perfect together. It’s like every time they hold hands and exchange smiles, they are like the best thing that ever existed. It sets the bar high for the weak ones and even make the single people have lesser hopes of getting their own happy stories. But let us not forget that no matter how joyful their relationships seem, they also undergo some problems which are not visible in their lovely facade. They are not as perfect as we see them. It’s not for always that what you see is all you can get. Maybe, what sets them apart from the broken is that they manage to just fix things even before people see them as falling apart because that is the true meaning of a wonderful relationship. It is not the number of times they hugged, kissed and said they love each other but it is how enthusiastic they are to work out and probably last for each other. Relationships are deep things that mean so much more. These allow people to unfold the amazing sense of living.

I know you came to a point when you got bountiful problems and you keep asking God “Why me?”

There was also a point in your life when you feel overwhelmingly blessed and do not take the time to thank God and ask “Why is it always me?”.

But whatever that is, either positive or negative, may it be something difficult for you or easy to carry always say to God, “Thank you it is me.”

God chose you for a reason and that reason is for Him to show you. :)

What are the things that I was not able to say? What are the things that I was unable to do or should have done? Why does everything has to be so hard? Sometimes I tend to forget how to make all rewarding but then I was thinking to myself that it is not about it. There are things in the world that should not matter in the first place but became much more important.

It crushed the once uncrushable. 

Jai(c)

There is a big rock in front of you, bigger than you and times ten your weight.

God said, push it. You did. You used all your energy and grew tired then you gave up.

You complained  and said that you pushed too hard but did not even made the rock move even an inch.

God said, PUSH—-Pray Until Something Happens.

Never cease to pray. Sometimes that big rock which represents all your problems and baggage might move only if you know how to ask and consistently believe that God will move in your life.

Today, I attended mass twice and consecutively. The first mass got me sleepy but I listened to the homily attentively and the second mass got me deep. Both masses were presided by the same priest but I just miss the feeling of being inspired by God again. 

God really talks to me specially during times that I need Him the most. I am confused right now of how I would like my life to be but He just told me to depend on Him and I think I should. Never forget that I should.

I want to scream. I want to jump from the highest peak but not die. I want to run from ends to ends. I want spontaneity. I want to be boundless. Infinity.

But there is nothing I could do. This world is limited and walled. People can judge you. People can stare at you and yet you will leave yourself bothered by what’s on their minds.

Rather, I want to escape this world. Breathe new air and just stay still. I want change and transformation. If only I could. If only it could.

I think I just gave up on this so-called romance. It’s not for me for this time yet. I ended my masochist self and thinking that today is pain, tomorrow is happiness. I just don’t want any chase now and let things go if they must go. I happened to not give a damn right now and not fear any consequence. I know that if I made the wrong decision, I should embrace the disappointment and at least I was able to finally know ‘what is’. I think time would really help. I do not know what might happen next but turning back, stopping or falling aside are for cowards. I was able to face pain with courage and I am ready to face more. Beauty may come next. Happiness may rest near my future.

Happy Yuletide.

I am still caught in a space wherein I know what is right but have no courage to choose it. It’s making me suffer and confused when I know I am nowhere near brave and wise to choose the correct direction. It is the same direction that I need but I guess I no longer love myself. I just trust my heart and this trust led me to hurt more people and most specially myself. I need lots of time to think and ponder on on how I want my life would look like. I know what I like but sometimes, what you like do not come to you. I need a lot of enlightenment and hope…the hope that will really help me get through. Sometimes, it’s false hope that make me guided but I do not want such anymore. I am craving for a change which I cannot find in myself. I want to shake this all off. I want to really let go.