And there you go, walking alone and kicking the dried leaves in front of you like they are at fault for everything that you are. You sip coffee when you wanted tea. You watch action when you wanted romance. Nothing comes easy but then again, though you work hard not a single entity comes to you. Reality and truth. Two things you hate to combine. It bites you hard and makes you bleed profusely. Then you feel down again. You can never heal.

Still walking alone, still kicking rocks and leaves. You find that single ray of hope in the far end of the horizon. You think to yourself that this may be another qualified false hope that you get all the time. You sigh. You feel down again. You can never be hopeful.

Such is life I tell you. Not all things is yours, only some. But then again you sometimes work hard, feel down, feel hopeless. You can still heal. You can still hope. You can still work. This day is still yours for the taking. 

You fall down but it is your choice whether you fall forward or fall backward. We can never tell. One can though. It’s you.

Today is just a lazy day and when I say lazy, I just blind pick anything that you can wear. Great thing, our school implements school uniform so I do not have to suffer knowing what to wear for the day every single day.

Today, I just decided to wear the shirt I gave my father last Christmas. I tend to wear the shirts of my father or brother during lazy days. I fold the sleeves, tie the bottom end and voila! I’m good to go. My brother wears my shirts though. Haha. Hating kapatid much.

That’s the beauty of being a woman, you can wear a man’s clothing and still look you. ;)) As what Audrey Hepburn said, the measure of sexiness of a woman can be measured not in her feminine clothes but in the clothes of her man. :)

Been munching on to these pastillas de leche and treated it as my brekkie. Just got home from Lucena, a province of my cousin’s hubby and had a fun time buying pasalubong. Add me in foursquare! Rushing lots of things in school and I am really stressed lately. :(

Random post! Hee! ;) March is coming and summer is near! No vacay for me though! Have a nice day ahead!

“When we’re incomplete, we’re always searching for somebody to complete us. When, after a few years or a few months of a relationship, we find that we’re still unfulfilled, we blame our partners and take up with somebody more promising. This can go on and on—series polygamy—until we admit that while a partner can add sweet dimensions to our lives, we, each of us, are responsible for our own fulfillment. Nobody else can provide it for us, and to believe otherwise is to delude ourselves dangerously and to program for eventual failure every relationship we enter.”

— Tom Robbins

We sometimes reap every chance to get that one shot of a lifetime but sometimes, available chances does not always mean that it is for you. It’s like life is making you crave for something that is, in the end, would not be given to you. That’s a sad fact that we cannot change. Not everything you see, no matter how hard you work for it or beg life to give it to you, would never be yours. Just be glad you met it and seize the moment that you were able to have it even though it is temporarily.

Life is bitter but you have to be better.

There are things in the world that are better left that way. It is far more useful to just accept things as they are and not insist yourself on making them go in accordance to what you want. In the long run, you will disappoint yourself and even get hurt. 

Just let it be. If it comes, it happens…thank you. If it does not…still thank you.

Every circumstance in this life is bounded and filled with choices. The options provided for you are your possible paths on how to go on with your life. You have to blame no one for the life that you have right now since everything is by your choice and your choice only. Everyone should know how to choose correctly because sometimes, there are no more chances. 

Some people tend to envy couples who seem to be so perfect together. It’s like every time they hold hands and exchange smiles, they are like the best thing that ever existed. It sets the bar high for the weak ones and even make the single people have lesser hopes of getting their own happy stories. But let us not forget that no matter how joyful their relationships seem, they also undergo some problems which are not visible in their lovely facade. They are not as perfect as we see them. It’s not for always that what you see is all you can get. Maybe, what sets them apart from the broken is that they manage to just fix things even before people see them as falling apart because that is the true meaning of a wonderful relationship. It is not the number of times they hugged, kissed and said they love each other but it is how enthusiastic they are to work out and probably last for each other. Relationships are deep things that mean so much more. These allow people to unfold the amazing sense of living.

I know you came to a point when you got bountiful problems and you keep asking God “Why me?”

There was also a point in your life when you feel overwhelmingly blessed and do not take the time to thank God and ask “Why is it always me?”.

But whatever that is, either positive or negative, may it be something difficult for you or easy to carry always say to God, “Thank you it is me.”

God chose you for a reason and that reason is for Him to show you. :)

There is a big rock in front of you, bigger than you and times ten your weight.

God said, push it. You did. You used all your energy and grew tired then you gave up.

You complained  and said that you pushed too hard but did not even made the rock move even an inch.

God said, PUSH—-Pray Until Something Happens.

Never cease to pray. Sometimes that big rock which represents all your problems and baggage might move only if you know how to ask and consistently believe that God will move in your life.

Today, I attended mass twice and consecutively. The first mass got me sleepy but I listened to the homily attentively and the second mass got me deep. Both masses were presided by the same priest but I just miss the feeling of being inspired by God again. 

God really talks to me specially during times that I need Him the most. I am confused right now of how I would like my life to be but He just told me to depend on Him and I think I should. Never forget that I should.

I promised myself to save for my desired phone but then again, my hands become itchy whenever I get to see something good and by something good, I mean cheap yet incredible stuffs. Before the month ends, here are some of the goodies that made me sin.

I have been a self-confessed animal print lover at the moment. Anything related to it catches my eyes. My mom bought me the pink and black zebra comforter and it is timely since I plan to redesign my room by the Christmas break. I also got the leopard top from Surplus and my mom also bought me the foldable Longchamp inspired bag. She already got it…I love animals prints next to color purple and pigs. :)

ANIMAL PRINTS. ANIMAL PRINTS. Why so pretty? But I am pro animal rights so yeah. :) You know what I mean. :)

I am also a slave of Ukay-ukay or thrift shops. I just get so hyped when I enter those shops and can’t stop searching for something that is worthy of my money. I love cardigans. I am a little conservative so I love putting on cardigans over my sleeveless tops. I spotted these two treasures for a very cheap price. When I say cheap, I mean it. The gray one caught my attention because of the evident comeback of crochet and the other symmetrical cardigan is from G2000 and it seems new. I was very satisfied when I left the store.

Next to it, I realized I bought two skirts with no particular reason. The blue skirt is from the the online store of my friend (Glamstore Collections), it’s blue metallic lining was awesome and the black bodycon skirt is also from a thrift shop. I was searching for the exact skirt because I was supposed to be attending a party then I saw the piece and immediately grabbed it. It was really a good timing for me. The price is as good as the pieces too. 

I always love shopping since it is one of my way to get rid of the stress and other bothering stuffs that I have in mind. I also believe that you do not have to spend a lot just to get the good and the beautiful things. I am a very particular of where to spend my money so that I can get the most out of it. Here is one stingy girl and I don’t see anything wrong with it. :)

Like what I said, I love pigs and my mother bought me another comforter with cute pigs. My mom got more love points from me for being very thoughtful. Now the problem is, what to use for my room redesigning? Hee. ;)

Remember, when buying things, use your money well. :)