July 3, 2011. My 19th birthday.

I really looked forward to this day. Somebody told me that I have to be excited because I will have a second 18th birthday. Second debut. I did actually. In the sense that in both of those birthdays, I cried only for different reasons.

I can really conclude that this is my most tearful birthday. The reason, it’s for me too keep and I know in myself that in times like I have 3 names to always remember and turn to…me, myself and I.

Indeed I have a lot of people in my life and sometimes I still wonder why I feel so alone. [Oops. Same quote!] I never want to filter people but it’s been a sad truth that a lot of them just get in and out of my life. I think I just have to stop over- analyzing things, simplify life and just be contented. I think I just have to dwell on matters that is more important as of the moment like my studies. I will stop drenching my life with so much drama and go on like I usually do. 

Nothing much happened. This is the most plain birthday that I had still I was thankful and always grateful to the people who hanged out with me. I call them my family. They really did a lot of things to entertain me specially my mother. And I want to thank some of the people who knows what I am going through and been helpful to my emotional recovery. You know who you are. My next year is for you. I will make it up to all your countless helps for me. 

I will stop giving much care for the people that will not care for me too. Sorry for the lame “Happy Birthday” picture. I just tried to entertain myself and I just found the frame suitable for this time of the year. Hee. I also adore this new glasses that I have which is in hot pink! Oh, well. Wearing red for the sake of it. Forgive me please!