I think I just gave up on this so-called romance. It’s not for me for this time yet. I ended my masochist self and thinking that today is pain, tomorrow is happiness. I just don’t want any chase now and let things go if they must go. I happened to not give a damn right now and not fear any consequence. I know that if I made the wrong decision, I should embrace the disappointment and at least I was able to finally know ‘what is’. I think time would really help. I do not know what might happen next but turning back, stopping or falling aside are for cowards. I was able to face pain with courage and I am ready to face more. Beauty may come next. Happiness may rest near my future.

Happy Yuletide.