I am still caught in a space wherein I know what is right but have no courage to choose it. It’s making me suffer and confused when I know I am nowhere near brave and wise to choose the correct direction. It is the same direction that I need but I guess I no longer love myself. I just trust my heart and this trust led me to hurt more people and most specially myself. I need lots of time to think and ponder on on how I want my life would look like. I know what I like but sometimes, what you like do not come to you. I need a lot of enlightenment and hope…the hope that will really help me get through. Sometimes, it’s false hope that make me guided but I do not want such anymore. I am craving for a change which I cannot find in myself. I want to shake this all off. I want to really let go.